It's been a while since my last post. I really don't know what to write about, everything I usually want to write is just me venting about things. Nobody really cares about what im venting about anyway so, I figure I should just keep it to myself. Otherwise, I feel people will just think I am a little bitch crybaby.
But since very few people read this, I'm going to vent a bit anyway, here we go.....
Over the holidays I have accepted two things in my life. 1: I am no longer going to try to be friends with a certain individual anymore, and 2: I am going to grow old and die alone. Depressing, right? It is, but only if you think about it, which I am no longer going to do, because thinking about important things are bad, and I will no longer cause myself to go crazy by doing so.
1. I have a "friend" that I always seem to try to stay in contact with and hang out when ever I can. Friend is in quotes because it seems I have have a different definition of the word than other people. Anyways, for a hwile things are good and it seem swe are pretty good friends, talking and hangout out a good amount. Then fucked up shit happens, I'm the one who gets "hurt", and you know what, that doesn't stop me from still wanting to be friends. I keep tying and trying, but this other person doesn't give the impression that they even care at all. I'm the only one who gives an effort, and honestly, if I never made contact with this person again, I honestly don't even think they would notice. As of right now, I just don't care anymore whether or not I hear from this person again. If I do, I won't be an asshole and ignore them, but it just doesn't matter to me anymore.
2. Yes, you read number two correctly. I am going to grow old and die alone. This of course is assuming Buddy is going to die before me. I've tried going out to new places, meet new people and I can make lots of new friends. I don't know what it is, maybe I'm too weird, strange, odd, or just look too much like a Chud baby, but I have yet to meet a woman who could think of me as something other than a weird, goofy friend. I've even tried the online bullshit, that's about as worthless as a participation ribbon. Being alone isn't all bad though. It gives me the freedom to do the childish things I like. For example, just spend the whole weekend playing video games, and watching several season of Doctor Who in one sitting.
To end this "depressing to read" post, I will honor a request from my brother, and tell you some more facts about myself.
1. I am an ordained minister
2. I hate my birthday. 2/14 it's the lonliest day of the year for me.
3. I am a big fan of indie, and comedy music
4. My name will be in the credits of a book and new cd by Richard Cheese
5. I am a very good actor, most of the time. If you don't know what I mean, then that proves it.
6. I don't look like it, but I have pretty quick feet.
7. I'm secretly a huge optimist. So when someone lets me down or I dissapoints me, I take it very personally and it hits me pretty hard. I act, and behave like I do, so not very many people can see that, it's also more fun that way.
8. In June, I plan to go to D.C. to see some friends and the Twins play the Nationals. I also plan on seeing Richard Cheese in Chicago.
9. I have a pillow pet of the Stay Puft Marshmallow man
and finally....
10. I honestly do believe everybody lies. I don't hold muck stock in the things people say, it's their actions that tell me what I need to know about them.
Just because:
